458 Days and counting!!!

So I've been slaking writing this blog....
The holiday season is upon us... I survived Thanksgiving! I ended up cooking for 12 people! It was crazy but I survived! Now onto Emma's 4th Birthday party Next weekend, and then Christmas!

I just found out my College Room mate Kat, is getting Married this September! So excited for her! We caught up a bit the other night on facebook and she shared her story of how her fiance and her met. Such a cute story!


I can't wait until after Christmas to start major planning on our wedding! It seems like everything is at a standstill right now because we are waiting until after the holidays.

at least we have decided that we want to do a cruise! and what colors we want.. that's about it lol

"Can we talk?"

Now I know what your thinking... if you are anything like me, the questions "can we talk" sends shivers down my spine and makes me thing of impending doom! It makes me frantically recount everything that I did or said in the last, 24 hours, 24days, 24 months ect.... I know the "can we talk" question has this effect on many people.... So I figured Nate would be a little apprehensive when I asked him if we could talk.  Now thankfully my future husband is an amazing listener and it had nothing to do with our relationship, i just honestly wanted his advice on some issues i was having with school and not working.... I love the fact that I can ask him to talk and he doesn't object, or throw a fit, or say later, or that he doesn't want to. He listens to me, and my fears and excitements and lets me vent. Its healthy! I love him more and more every day and the fact that he fully understands where I'm coming from and doesn't judge me or my feelings makes me 110% sure that i will LOVE spending the rest of my life with him :)

Money money money....

Money.... It is HONESTLY the ROOT of all EVIL! Nate and I have had so many fights this past week about money.... And the lack of it.



I had a freak out moment last night, where I felt completely helpless to the fact that we can't even seem to save month to month. We always end up really tight the weekend before a pay week ( he gets bi weekly checks) But yet we manage to get by. However, last night when I was so upset about the fact that we have enough money to do 2 loads of laundry and MAYBE put $15 into our truck in fuel, I just lost it.... I started thinking about all the planning that we have to do to have the wedding WE want.... To have the wedding that is about us and our love for each other... and yet I felt completely helpless to the fact that we haven't saved a dime for it. We try to put money away, we really do... but it seems like every time we have a bit set aside, something happens and we have to dive into it.

Is it wrong of me to want the wedding that I've always dreamed of? Now by NO Means do I want the million dollar price tag for my wedding... In fact our good friends got married in our COURT YARD of our apartment complex and it was BEAUTIFUL! Jenn made most of the decorations and favors and flowers, and her parents bought her, her dream dress, and Lee wore a suit, and it was so filled with love. I WANT THAT! I want to be able to walk down the isle,  with my father( wherever it may be) and see Nate and the other end smiling at me. I want ALL of our family there ( mine and his included). I want my sister and her wife there, and I want Emma to be there with me, because Nate loves us so much and wants us to be a family.

I just have to keep reminding myself that it's not about what you eat at the reception, or if there is a open bar, it's about celebrating the love between each other....
I will get to marry my best friend. I will get to say 'I DO" with my friends and family watching and I will get to dance with my Husband.....

Family Drama...

Ugh... I forget where I read it but somewhere it said that weddings bring out the best and worst in people... BOY whoever said that is SO RIGHT!! Massive amounts of family drama currently and we've only set a date! The fact that my fiance and I want our wedding on our anniversary date ( the same date we got engaged on) is appertain a HUGE deal, because in 2013, that day falls on a Monday... Now I'm sorry but it's over a year and a half away, if you can't seem to understand why I'm getting upset that you can't make arrangements to come to my wedding, a year and a half away, then don't come! It's one less plate of food I'd have to pay for! Seriously, this is suppose to be the day when my fiance and I show our love to the world and each other and get married! This is a forever thing, and I'm sorry that you think that a Monday wedding is Tacky... it's our wedding, not yours and if you don't want to come then DON'T!

A courthouse wedding is sounding more and more fantastic right now....

Day 1 of blog... 664 days till my Wedding :)

Alright... So since I've been engaged, I haven't been active in planning at all!!! I've found a dress, but haven't bought it, I've looked online at venues  but nothing serious... the only thing we have set so far is a date... March 4, 2013... I know I know it's a LONG way out but I want to be almost done with my Bachelors program before we get Married... I'll be a full time student during this whole wedding planning process so it's better that my fiance and I as a team decided to have a long engagement. 
This blog will be my ramblings and findings of ideas and stress from planning a wedding, while being a full time student and a full time Mommy.... (I have a 3 year old daughter) 
Please sit back and enjoy the ride :)